it has been almost 2 years since i last did THIS, which i found HERE.
two days ago, someone almost ruined my day by making a comment, which (to give her the benefit of the doubt) was perhaps just an honest and innocent remark gone bad. however frank some people say i am, i insist that i actually just speak a part of my mind. as i grow older, i find that i do edit myself a lot. if i didn’t, i would have less to vent on this journal (or mom, or my niece, or my cousins..).
so when a person speaks to me for the FIRST time and tells me that she “never thought that i was nice and sweet to my students because i didn’t look like it” — i do not know how to feel exactly. did she actually believe that was a compliment? so how far has she actually judged me prior to making that comment? and why the hey does the burden of speaking first to people rest on me? why do they not try approaching me first — for a change?
i bit my tongue so hard then it almost bled. well figuratively. i am older now, and even though i can’t say i don’t care — i am deciding not to dwell on people’s fickle minded tendencies. i am deciding to stop being bothered and just look at the better side of things.
for days now, i have been getting text messages and email from students thanking me for the grade they got, and lots more of the words a teacher could not help but be touched and inspired with — all mush and schmaltz taken. of course no thanks was necessary: they did all the work and they were graded based on that.
so really — if i do not look so kind, who cares?
my list of this week’s bright spots:
1. Johnson’s daily calming body wash. does work.
2. sleeping in.
3. dinner with a friend i work with but haven’t really seen much of during the last few days of the recent semester. there was much to chat about and catch up on — gossip, rants, classroom stories, etc.
4. red toe polish.
5. Ray LaMontagne’s music.
